As I said in a previous blog post, I want to make my goals for the new year very specific and measurable and attainable. I have some really random things I want to do this year but I most of them are things I’ve wanted to do for years. So, without further ado here are my goals for 2018.
- Sign to a talent agency
- Get booked for a job
- Go to an abandoned storage auction and win a bid
- Go to Los Angeles for the summer
- Make at least 30 new friends and expand my network
- Lose 10-20 pounds (tone my body)
- Become Vegetarian (or at least adopt a predominately greens and grains diet)
- Go to Gym 3 times a week regularly
- Vlog everyday for the summer
- Film at least 20 short films by the end of 2018
- Write at least 50 scripts by the end of 2018
- Increase engagement on my youtube Channel by 1000%
- Actually Blog Everyday
- Make Rap Song and Direct Music Video for it
- Take Dance Classes
- Finish Script for the Feature Film length Movie I am currently writing
- Submit my scripts to contests
- Get internship in Los Angeles this summer
- Go to an award show
- Collaborate with someone cool
Those are all the goals I am going to share with you guys for now. I have some more goals that are a bit more personal that I may share at a later date if they get solidified. I am so excited for this year. I know it will be filled with hard work on my part, the one thing I am afraid of is that I will dive head first in working towards my goals and not be social at all and seclude myself from my friends. Another goal I have that is not really measurable is to break out of my shell in front of people I don’t know very well and be comfortable to be myself no matter how embarrassing my personality might feel to me.
2018 is going to be my year. I feel it.
Talk to you all soon!
It used to be really easy for me to find video inspiration for YouTube. I used to do a lot of trendy videos from makeup/beauty to challenges. But, I genuinely want to make those videos and did not just make them for clout, but because they were trendy, they did get more views. Now, I usually just vlog for my channel but I do like to vlog, but it just isn’t as entertaining. It’s hard to think of videos that are easier to do but are also entertaining to watch. I do have some ideas that will require a little more effort to make, and I’m actually thinking of making a whole other channel to post the videos, just because it is so different from anything I’ve posting and I want to put more into the production of those videos.
On another topic, I watched one of Logan Pauls videos today and the dude is pretty inspiring, if I’m being honest. He said something like find something different that no one else is doing and make it your own; put your all into it and keep going full speed even when you start seeing results. I was like “damn” I really want to make waves in this world and I feel like there are so many expectations set on me that almost limit me, and I feel like if I do certain things I will make people in my life upset even though I would be doing what I love and what I want to do.
That was so generic, but I feel like there is so many different paths to life that you can take and you shouldn’t feel limited to one set path.
That is all for today thanks for listening.
Yeah, I’m inconsistent, but lets just pretend that this is my third day posting in a row. Maybe, I’ll even post twice today and pretend it is a two separate days.
Now that we’ve got that settled, I want to talk about a thing. A lot of people have been bring up the fact that I look super awkward and act super awkward in the videos I’m in for college nation. I AM AWARE. I just was not aware at the time. Because one, I have never been in a setting like that on video with other people. I need to get used to it. I act different in my own videos because I am comfortable being myself when I’m the only one around. It’s different being around people I haven’t known for very long with other people in the room watching you and reacting to what you do. I decided to do this because I want to get experience in doing more things like College Nation. Yes, I appreciate the pointer but I also do realize that I do zone out when I’m not talking and will be more aware of it the next time I am in something. I again want to say that when I film my own videos I’m usually the only one talking so I don’t really know what to do when I’m sat in a chair and someone else is talk. On top of that, I tend to have a bit of socially anxiety and act weird when I’m in a setting where I am even the least bit uncomfortable. I also have complete control when I make my own videos and decide what I want to cut out or keep in. I guarantee that I will be more entertaining and less awkward when I become more accustomed to and comfortable in that setting.
ALSO, people have always said “Bitota you act so different in your YouTube videos than you do in real life” UhHMmm OKAy. I don’t expect everyone to act the exact same in every social setting. Again, when I am alone with just my camera I feel I can be my complete weird self because I am my only judge, (well along with the internet). I can’t really explain it but the camera is like my greatest release. It’s like journaling for some people. If you know me in real life I’m awkward but I honestly love my awkwardness at times when I can channel it to be funny or make people uncomfortable. It also bugs me when people think that I am so outgoing and can prosper in any social setting, because it honestly takes a lot for me at times to be social and not not awkward.
That is all for now,
thanks for listening