I feel like it will be so strange going to college all the way across the country fending for my own. Honestly, I know I’ll be just fine but it is a bit frightening. The part that scares me the most is not knowing anyone around me and essentially starting over. It was already hard for me to open up to the people in my life right now and to know that they won’t be right there by my side for this is nerve-wracking. However, I had to meet new people and form new relationships every time I started at a new school, so I’m sure I can do it now. I know I will not forget about my friends here though. I love the friends I have here in the city and they are the most down to earth people I know.
Adulting scares me. In college, I have to be fully responsible for myself and my money. It is so freaky that I will be almost 30 in 10 years. I have no idea how I’m going to mature so much by then and have a real grasp at life. Being an adult doesn’t seem like much fun, especially if you have a 9 to 5 job. I hate the thought of working a normal job. That is why I need to establish myself in the next couple years and figure out what I want to do. I used to act in school plays up until freshman year of high school but then I stopped because I got busy and joined sports. I enjoy acting but it is a tough field to get into and I don’t even know if I would like it. It is very scary not knowing what you want to do with your life when everyone around you seems to have it all figured out. I can not see myself doing anything that requires me sitting an office or just me being confined to any work space. Hopefully, college will help me figure myself out some way some how.
How does one even adult? I didn’t even know what taxes really entailed until I worked last summer. I still don’t even understand how to file for taxes and why you need to. Every Adult duty confuses me. Thankfully, the only bills I have to pay for a while are my tuition bills. I actually am really excited to get internship/work experience so I know what different jobs entail and if I like them or not. I hope to get a cool internship this first semester and another one for the second semester. I know it will be a lot of work keeping up with the internship along with school, but I feel like I will learn a lot about myself and just gain knowledge in general.
I have so many emotions about college, but the most present one is excitement. There is so much that I will accomplish this year and I am really glad that I started this blog and am sharing all my thoughts with you all.